I seriously don't know what to write. I just know that I have to.

Where do you go? When you really need to allow your pieces to fall apart - where do you go? And why should you assume you have to go to another person? Or  why assume you have to turn to a higher entity?
Or why decide that you have to carry the burden on your own?

I don't have answers right now. All I have are questions. That's all I have, right now.